Hey all !
Woah, certainly there is a lack in updates. But hey, im doing fine and still kicking.
Today I got into a close encounter with a accident due to neligence act of a SBS driver.

I was on a bus @ toa payoh int, where the driver is waiting to turn out of the int. Then, there was another driver reversing his double deck bus out from the lot and my bus was directly behind his. I reckoned he didnt even bother to check his side mirror before reversing out. So on his presumed assumption, he reversed. It was a loud bang before the glass were shattered into bits and I was just 2 seats in front. It was such a close encounter but i'm so thankful that no one was injured.

this world cup has been overwhelming!
It seems i've lost touch from many things.
I've been going out late and coming home in wee hrs before reporting for work the next day.
Average hrs of slp was down to 4hrs.
This world cup has been depressing too, its not football im talking abt. It seems the games are flowing alongside with the bookies. My intuition tells me that this World Cup seems to have been controlled. Bookies, Singapore Pools are making tonnes of money, and you wouldnt want to imagine that. But some matches are really good. GO ARGENTINA !! Thats my take for this World Cup. :)

While watching the matches earlier on, there was this random random thought that crossed my mind.

Women always say this : " It seems that all good guys have extinct !!"

Sounds familiar huh? But if you were to think deeper, what will women do when good guys are right in their presence?
I will leave this qns for yourself to answer.
Guys can never understand girls and Vice versa !!

Contradiction is my only description for them.
Words and Actions are always in CONFLICT !
I'm pretty sick of reading pple's mind, the more I try, the more depressing it is.
I'm done with mind games

Gd night !!!

Cousin Roger & Trisha 's Wedding

Just came back from my cuzzie's wedding.
Gosh, I wont deny that time flies.

10 years back, Roger kor was some organizing committee of a BB Night's Cycling Trip and together with cuzzie Justin, both of participated and survived the night.

5 years back, if I'm correct, Roger kor was crafting his career path with the Army. So whenever we have house visiting, he never failed to share with us "Ghost" Stories. And Movie Marathon was the highlight during that stage of our lives.

Now 2010, he finally got married, and is ready to spend and commit his life with beloved Trisha. The wedding @ M-Hotel was simple. The whole ceremony started with the prestigious presentation of the Sword Bearers. Suave looking NS men with awesome figure and babyface(proclaimed by mommy) lined up at the aisle, ready to welcome the lovely couple. And emcees for the ceremony make the walk a challenging and a memorable one, extraordinary is the word. There are 3 obstacles.

1) To witness the everlasting love they have for one another:
They are supposed to kiss till we stopped clapping. So the entire kissing moment lasted for 2-3mins, and YES, they went through that easily.

2) To witness intimate bond they have with one another:
They are supposed to sing a DUET. Gosh and everyone stood in awe when their amazing voices filled through the banquet room. They became Superstar OVERNIGHT ! Awsome !!

3) To witness the support both of them shared:
Roger kor have to carry Trisha to the stage. Sounds difficult? ABSOLUTELY NOT MAN !!!

Service was satisfactory and the food, nth to rave abt actually. But the banquet room was cosy and the lighting was soft and warm, so thats the plus point.
There were lots of catching up with relatives and cousins. I love bonding sessions because thats when you get to learn so much from the seniors. I've learnt so much from my uncle, a businessman, single, and have so much experience in this working society. He shared a few points that totally struck me hard. He left me with 2 advises.

1) To have a good PR. Be polite to the people around you, be respectable and never despise anyone. Bring out your true self and never feel intimidated to strike conversation with others. BE YOURSELF !
2) To have guts to try ! I guess this point has proven to have the greatest impact on me. There are so many things I've always wanted to do and I know it will benefit me in the future. But most of the time, I procrastinate due to a few factors.

Companionship - I guess up to this date, I've still not learnt this BIG word " INDEPENDENCE". To be able to attend a course alone, without companions, is not my option at all. So I guess, this factor has imposed a huge barrier from achieving what i really want. I need to do smth abt it.

Worthiness - Would you spend 150 bucks on a new pair of sneakers or will you use that money to upgrade yourself ? That is a qns which I've always struggled when it crossed my mind.

Excuses - Coming home at 7pm almost everyday, do you think I have the time ? Sounds familiar? Simple excuses like this may be a hindrance.

I'm beginning to learn more abt myself, which i think is really necessary and important. Why am I feeling that I just a ordinary person, nth in my portfolio, nth extraordinary, nth to rave abt... The world is progressing, why am I not moving ? This is a qns which I need to constantly ask myself. What am i gonna do in the future ? To be a workaholic who slogs his heart out just to survive in this society OR to be a self driven person who has crafted out a good career for himself? My parents have been really good role models in my life. They deserve a good life when they stepped into their Golden Years. I will make them proud, make them happy.

After NS will be Uni life. Gosh thats when mathematical formulae step into the picture once again! Come to think of it, i have 1 year 2 mths more before I officially served my liability off to the nation. After which, it will be the paramount stage of my life. My rice bowl is dependent on these next 3 years of studies. Either I make it or break it, I need the strength to do it, for my parents, for myself !!

NS will be a great opportunity to upgrade myself. I have to take up courses, to move forward like how this world is progressing. To stay competitive so that I wont lose out to people by a huge margin. Hmm sounds hard, but I need to have the guts to try !

Oops! Seems like I was out of the track. Yeah wedding bells. I wish Roger kor and Trisha will share a blissful and wonderful life ahead of them. It's amazing when 2 strangers of different background, beliefs, principles, strengths, flaws, come together to share their lives as one!

LOVE may be a small word on the appearance, but to this date, many still could not comprehend the real meaning of love and I'm of no exception too. Love makes one blind, to the extend of losing himself, his rights, his beliefs, his principles, his freedom, just to compromise and sacrifice for the other party. Love is complicated, it cant never be defined accurately, NEVER !
Like what my uncle have mentioned, LOVE is not everything. LOVE is not a priority.
But to think of it, wont it be good to have someone to give you the support you've always needed, to know that someone will be there for you when no one else would, to savour the love care concern when you needed it most? This is an undeniable fact when you view human needs in a different light. We humans need to be loved.
I can give pretty good advises to pals regarding love issues but when its my turn, it seems that I sucked at it. I often screwed up things, because when i thought things were going fine, it turned out to be otherwise. I always rationalized things before I made decisions. I always follow my heart instead of considering options provided by people ard me, but time and time again, it was eminently proven that it often got me into a mess! I hate deciphering things, reading pple's thoughts, convincing myself that "hey its ideal to set out with those actions". I've learnt but often i will wavered when certain situations struck me. Call me a wuss, but fuck that, thats me and I will change for the betterment of myself. My love life sucks indeed but hey its not everything. Trust me, when i say I've lost faith, I meant I really did. I lose it all man and i do not need to prove anything...
Alright enough on that, I'm getting pretty sick !

Companionship or Self centered decision

I should have chosen for the formal.

Sometimes I won't deny this term " action speaks louder than words"
it's easy to say, easy to give promises, easy to say I will nt give up, easy to say I will
commit etc... But when u get dwn to your actions, everything seems to change! When I looked back and compare to this date, it was never easy!! When you've tried but things doesn't seems to change, what does this imply then? It's like you are in an open sea, struggling to reach the shore but was constantly being drifted away by the current. So sometimes in life, it's not how much you've tried, it's not how much effort u are willing to put in. If situation doesn't change, just like if the current remain strong, you will never reach the shoreline!! You may fuck swear and curse this analogy, but If it ever strike a chord with u, this is for you! Definitely I hate this, but I'm trying to accept this.

My focus is slowly shifting. I need to work really hard ( there you go, WORDS of proclaimation) , stay driven and make the best out of life.
I need to be prudent coz I need my camera at the end of this year!!!

I'm feeling nausea now man!! Damn maybe I need kimchi like pregnant ladies need their prunes! Only difference, after 8mths their tummy will be deflated, my unborn has been there for years!! Alright need to really slp now, else I will be really grumpy tmr!! Gd night

I'm missing the companionship....

Oh man it's HOME ALONE for me today!!
Everyone seems to have their own programmes EXCEPT me, so it's pretty apparent tt I need to find mine too.
Was feeling pretty listless today!! I came back from lunch and slept through the entire afternoon!! So lethargic...

I woke up with sky almost dark.
Called Nua Kia and off we went to cp to settle dinner!!
As usual, once I set on kopitiam, the first stall is always the Korean store!! I wouldn't say the kimchi was fantastic but if it satisfies my craving for sour stuff, why not!! This dinner was pretty rush because nua Kia gotta book in!! After dinner, went to settle my credit card bill! As I'm meeting lk for some mind therapy session ard 10plus, i've realised tt there were still excess time. Would love to chill at starbucks if not for my full stomach! So decided patronise my favourite store, SUPERMARKET!! I could easily kill time at the supermarket. I miss gathering at my place, I will need to plan 1 this sat!! I will whip some food, have some champagne and just chill out!!! Can't wait!!

Now this is a funny encounter I had at Cold Storage!! There was this china man with 3 boxes of cherries on his hand. I caught him at this condom shelf where I believe he was meddling which flavour to get. He looked pretty panicky!! Then he dropped his cherries!! Feeling embarrassed, he swiftly picked all the cherries up and placed them back to the box. All eyes were fixed on him and it was pretty awkward for him.. I could have burst into laughter but I've tried to control.. It's was damn hilarious. Boxes of cherries and cherry-flavoured condoms, sounds kinky huh!! When older generation says tt china is rising up, u better heed tt advice!! Even china man are improving luscious night activities, maybe having theme like cherry night etc... Classic!!

Alright enough of phony baloney for the night.. Tmr is menopause Monday again!!! Time to finish my game and rest for the night!!!
Sweet dreams!!!

Oh man, today was such a draining day for me, BUT I had FUN !!!
Hit town with buds earlier today, and we pigged out !
Hoping from one place to another just to have really nice food.
And it was fun catching up with one another :)

After town, I've decided to meet Sivachandru Vijayan and clique. It has been a really long time since I last saw them. We hit Le Noir @ Clarke Quay just to chill out. The place was really good and we just had a bottle and some shots to go along with. Le Noir is a small bar, but it does have a small dance floor and the music was pretty good. It's a nice chill out place !

Hmm so whats up for tmr ?
Soccer @ noon and I'm going to this nice beach bar @ Sentosa tmr afternoon after my match. Heard many good reviews and I would love to try smth lil different. So tmr will be another chill out day for me and I would really need to go on Detox on sunday !

Alright, its time to knock out. My head is pretty heavy and I could just snore within minutes !
Gd night peeps !!

Had fun at Zouk ytd. Celebrated Clare and Chris birthday. Our group was really huge, we had 10 pple in our clique. Music was superb after 2am when Andrew Chow decided to hit the podium to bring some life to the dancefloor. Whats more, the crowd was awesome !! As usual when you club, being pushed around in all directions is inevitable but ytd 3 interesting things happened.

1) A guy with a fucking B.O was dancing around us, he stinks but aint aware of it.

2) A guy wearing a white shirt was dancing vigorously with his clique of girls and he sweat like he just attended a wet tee contest. The annoying thing was, he was dead drunk to even realise that he was wet and neither was he aware of himself leaning on me. No wonder my elbow hurt so much today, I've been nudging pple off, only those who have no party-courtesy.

The last incident which took place was classic and I couldnt take it lying down.

I was with my peeps and this girl walked past me, hit me on the neck, pointed the universal sign and walked off. I was taken aback by her actions, I thought it was someone i knew but I was wrong when the universal sign reveal itself. As you know, the place will usually be packed and crowded, so my presumption was, it could be one of the guys around me who groped her and I was caught to be the goat of mistaken identity, SCAPEGOAT. She walked away too fast, else I will just walk towards her and clarify things out. Such a dumb bitch, just that my shirt is brighter than the others doesnt mean that I more detectable than the rest who will lay my fingers on you...

All in all, I had fun ytd, it was such a release and I needed that badly. Work is stressing me to my ends and I need a breakthrough. I took an urgent half day leave, will report back to work soon, get work done so that at the end of Mon, there will still be sign of life.

I'm struggling with my dreams but I cant stop them from coming. Live with it boy !

Buenos Dias!!!!

Thank God that I've survived the brutal Monday blues!! Apparently, ytd wasn't my day nor a good day to kickstart the week with. Truckload of work just for me and there were too many stuffs to handle but too lil time. I'm beginning to see the reality of the workforce. Stress level, anger management, OT, beset by superior's demands and expectations etc are beginning to unveil themselves!! I'm thankful to have been posted to SPF, it's just a blessing in disguise.

The weather during this period has been erratic and the heat is causing detrimental harm to my skin. I'm having terrible breakouts and experiencing dryness on the skin. It was then daddy decided to bring me to this specialist ytd. Dr goh is a terrific dermatologist! She've gt 2 clinics, 1 at orchard and the other one at tampines. She prescribed me with so many lotions and gels which I need to strictly adhere to in order to see results. Total bill amounted to $200, it was pricey but if it works wonder, it's definitely worth it.

Hmm it's tue morning!! My long awaited Holis are coming! Can't wait!! I'm set on going batam for a day or 2 to chill out, massage and have a whole day of cable skiing!!! Can't wait, I'm gonna plan out the details and submit the proposals!! Wohoooo it will be fun for sure :)

Now it's time to slog and work dilligently, so as to avoid OT at the end of the day!!